Somebody Else

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Hi,
Today I feel them.
Heavy black clouds in the back of my mind.
I've been pushing them back for a good while now but I have let them slip, myself slip.
My room is a tip and I can't muster anything within myself to move at all, reflecting perfectly the state of my mind.

 My mood has become snappy and easily swayed.
Making choices or decisions has become almost impossible.
I thought the sun would keep them away but my mood remains, dark,

 Jealous and petty are quite big traits of this other person I become when the clouds settle in my once bright mind.
Why are they doing better than me?
Happier than me?
More than me.

 Past love found another girl.
I'm angry, why does he like somebody else?

 I don't want him, but she cant have him either.
Selfish right?

 I'll work on it.
Tidy room, Tidy Mind.

 I hope.
Wish me luck, 
H
xxx

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