HeatherLeighFX

Hey guys,  I turn 22 on the 28th and I wanted to do a run down of who I am as a person in this moment in time and some things I have learnt.  I'm still a home bird; I love being at home with my family in my nest of a bedroom.  I am simultaneously the most and least confident I have ever been; I am confident in my life and choices but my self-confidence could use a boost.  University has been the biggest whirlwind of my life, one of the best choices I have made.  Friends will come and go and that's alright, you're alright.  Happiness is never constant, it's a feeling not a state of being.  You are free to go wherever you want, whenever you want, be whoever you want, with whomever you want...whenever YOU are ready.  Everyone's growing and changing at different speeds, including you. I enjoy being alone; hate being lonely. Nobody owes you anything, work hard for what you want.  Love is real hard but makes you feel alive and is wort...

Hey guys,  Today I wanted to gush about my family. So I'm gonna.  My family is small, so small in fact that I could list them all here and still have only written two lines.  I used to think this was a huge downfall, that happy families are big families that have lots of parties and have second cousins once removed (what does that even mean?!). This however, is false.  My cousin recently got married at the end of February and the whole thing just confirmed that my family, as small as it is, is amazing and I love them all.  My mum and dad are so great, they are protective but their moral compass is so much straighter than mine and they will tell me when I am wrong, I always thought that your parents should always be on your side but that never helps anybody and I'm glad to learn from them, my mum is and will forever be my best friend, this shows in the fact that even at 22 i'd rather do everything with her than anyone else and I tell her literally e...

Hey guys,  I thought i'd talk about something a little different today, something a little harder to talk about but I feel like maybe talking about it will be some how therapeutic.  I hate my body.  Now, this statement is usually met with friends and family countering it with compliments and flattery.  However, those in my mind are empty.  The only thing those comments make me believe is that there are people that care about me and want me to feel good, which is lovely but I don't feel that way about myself.  I have put on weight in the last year and I'm not okay with it, I feel wrong and 'lumpy' I notice all of the parts of my body that are now softer and squishier and I hate it.  I was severely underweight when I was younger and weighed just enough to keep me out of hospital (still had to see a LOT of doctors though) it sounds really bad but for me it was never about my weight or how I looked, it was purely because I hated eating, it felt ...