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We almost had Paris.

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  We almost had Paris   We were close weren’t we, sunshine?  We were so close. Almost.  You’d call me at 1am almost every night and keep on til’ 4 and you’d cry at first.  But then, it became radio sunshine. All the hits from 1 til’ 4 and you’d play The 1975, just for me.  You hate The 1975. We made plans for Paris.  While you lay upside down with a beret placed jaunty on your head. In a room you always said was too fucking hot. It was going to be hot.  The sunshine was inside keeping me warm. We gave ourselves different identities and decided that Paris needed us, we’d go and take it by storm. We’d wander around art galleries, eat nothing but pastries and pasta and you’d drink wine until I’d have to lead you home. And we’d laugh. We’d laugh so hard at our horrific fake accents and our outlandish outfit choices but they were ours. That night when you rang at 2am and said that you wished I was there, I booked Paris. A surprise. Of course. For after...

Time flies (not) when there's a deadly virus knocking about.

Well shit,  It's been a long ol' while since I did this 'pour my heart out online' thing but your gal is back. The last time I posted I was 22, whoops.   We (as in..literally everyone in the world right now) is mid-lockdown, the entire world has stopped, as a very dangerous virus makes its way through it.  That sounds like I'm being real dramatic (and i do have a flare for it) however it is the unfortunate reality we are facing.  I'm not sure what week everyone else is on but I have completed four weeks of self-isolation and the government has recently announced a further..three. That wont be the end though..I miss my job..my friends.  I would say that this is going to be a little sanctuary for people who want a break from #covidchat but oh baby its not, as a naturally anxious gal this is where I've decided to put it all. sorry.  It wont be ALL the time but It's deffo not going to be a 'everything is fine' type of place, luckily, I ba...

Stuck in the middle.

Hi, I’m heather and I’m the most scared person you’ll possibly ever meet.  When I say scared, I don’t mean of things like spiders, ghosts or anything of the supernatural nature (I’ve never believed in that kind of thing) I mean I’m scared of the mundane.  Of life.  I don’t know where this fear has come from I wasn’t always scared, at 16 i was throwing myself into things that would, now, render me catatonic. I’m scared I’ll never be in love, I’m scared of being in love.  I’m scared of not getting a job, I’m scared of putting myself up for jobs.  I’m scared of new places and people and I’m scared I’ll always live my life in the same old place, never meeting anyone new. Most of all, I’m scared of being fixed and I’m scared I’ll always be like this.  Stuck in the middle. H  X

Easy Love.

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Hey,  (Before I get into this I'm aware that I could totally give away the people I'm talking about and if by chance you're reading, I'm sorry? I think.)  I have loved so many people in my lifetime, not always IN love but love nonetheless and I reminisce about each time and think about how fucking easy it would have been to have just given in, so why didn't I?.  First of all, two of the four? (ish) people I have felt this way about have been friends of mine, like damn fucking good friends so when those feeling wrapped their way around my heart and twisted their way into my stomach I fucking freaked out.  Big time, the major reason being that I didn't want to ruin our friendship (but I honestly just think I used that excuse as a shield) the second reason being that these people knew everything about me, they were my soulmates, both in  different ways.  One made me feel, fearless..utterly fucking fearless like when we were together nothing could/w...

Wednesday's Homicidal Maniac.

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Hey Cuties,  Today I wanted to start my Halloween makeup looks and who better to kick it off than the deadpan spoopy beauty herself, Wednesday Addams.  I hold this little weirdo close to my heart and whilst most little girls wanted to be princesses (I dont blame them tbh) I wanted to be Wednesday so bad, so every single time Halloween rolls around, my mind automatically goes to her, however she is super popular this time of year so I rarely get a chance to fulfill my dream without about 50 other Wednesdays around as well but fuck it, this year I'm doing it.  I'm going to give a speedy little run down on how I created the look, so first I started with a VERY pale base foundation (not white!) but very pale then highlighted with a white greasepaint and contoured with a light brown mixed with a bruisey shade of purple. After all was blended, I powdered (A LOT) with white translucent loose powder and filled in my brows as sharp and as dark as possible with a b...

The Spoopy Season.

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Hey lil' pumpkins! (I'll work on that).  October is here which basically means that every day is Halloween and I can start putting out some super creepy makeup looks which is what I LIVE for.  But before I throw myself head first into the only festive season I enjoy, I wanted to give you a tiny little run down of a big thing that happened in my life recently. On Friday 29th September I finally graduated from university with a 2:1 Upper Class BA (Honours) Degree in Specialist Hair and Media Makeup which means that four years of going to the same place at least four times a week, seeing my best friends and being in a safe and comfortable environment is over.  I think not being able to see my best friend everyday (or even for weeks at a time) is going to be super hard and I already miss her (I only left her on Saturday!..speaking of which I am resigning from alcohol forever, ughbleh). Okay with all of the sad gushy stuff out of the way I want to share with you some ...

Advice for uni students

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Hey little college fledglings,  (I'm not sure how that works outside of the UK)  As my graduation is fast approaching and the new wave of fresh faced freshers will be descending on to campuses all over the world I decided to give you a little bit of advice about what to expect and some tips that I definitely did not listen to but ones that would have helped me through uni.  1) Put aside a small amount of your student loan each term (around 5% depending on how much you are getting) for emergencies, I know all you want to do is buy the bare essentials and blow the rest on alcohol and late night pizza, but trust me there is always a unknown cost around the bend, being in a creative field there weren't many 'book' expenses in my uni years but sometimes you just cant find that one tiny (really bloody expensive) book in the library and your deadlines will not wait for you, then if you make it through that term and you haven't needed the fall back money you can...